99 Truths

1. Full Name: Tara Marie Brown
2. Nickname: bunny
3. Zodiac Sign: Libra
4. Male or Female: Female
5. Elementary School: ---------
6. High School: ---------
7. College: U of A hopefully.
8. Hair Color: Black and Purple
9. Tall or Short: 5’7
10. Religon: Wiccan
11. Sweats or Jeans: Jeans
12. Phone or Camera: Camera<3
13. Health Freak: Nah
14. Orange or Apple: Orange
15. Do you have a girlfriend/ boyfriend?: Nope
16. Eat or Drink: Eat :)
17. Eye Color: Hazel
18. Pepsi or Coke: Root beer
HAVE YOU EVER?
19. Been in an airplane: Nope
20. Been in a relationship: Yes
21. Been in a car accident: Yes
22. Been in a fist fight: Yes
FIRST AND LAST:
23. First piercing: Ears. Yes and Tongue
24. First love: Johnny
25. First award: Attendanc
26. First unnatural hair color: Blue
27. First word : Momomom
28. First curse word: Thunder balls
29. Last person you talked to in person: Tammy
30. Last person you texted: Justin
31. Last person you watched a movie with: Jack and Tammy
32. Last food you ate: Muffins
33. Last movie you watched: Peter Pan
34. Last song you listened to: Pick up the Phone by FIR
35. Last thing you bought: Rabbit Food
36. Last person you hugged: Tammy
FAVORITE:
37. Food: SUBWAY!
38. Drink: Root Beer with Sprite
39. Bottoms: My good-lookin-butt pants :D
40. Top: Band t-shirt
41. Animal: Bunny
42. Colors: don't have one
43. Movies: A Clockwork Orange, Peter Pan, Tangled, Rocky Horror Picture Show,
44. Favorite Subject: English
HAVE YOU EVER: (Put an X in the brackets if yes)
45. [x] Gotten Baptized.
46. [X] Celebrated Halloween.
47. [x] Had your heart broken…
48.[x] Went over the minutes/texts on your cell phone.
49. [x] Had someone question your sexual orientation.
51. [] Got pregnant.
52. [] Had an abortion.
53. [x] Did something you regret.
54. [x] Broke a promise.
55. [X] Hid a secret.
56. [X] Pretended to be happy.
57. [X] Met someone who changed your life.
58. [x] Pretended to be sick.
59. [] Left the country.
60. [X] Tried something you normally wouldn’t try and liked it.
61. [X] Cried over the silliest thing.
62. [x] Ran a mile.
63. [X] Went to the beach with your best friend.
64. [x] Got into an argument with your friends.
65. [x] Dated someone
66. [X]Worn mens underwear
CURRENTLY:
67. Eating: Nothing
68. Drinking: Nothing
69. Listening to: Falling In Reverse
70. Sitting/Laying: Sitting
71. Plans for today: Sleep
72. Waiting for: Something to Happen
YOUR FUTURE:
73. Want kids: No
74. Want to get married: No
75. Career: NO FREAKING IDEA
WHICH ONE in a significant other:
76. Lips or Eyes: Eyes, although soft lips are a turn on.
77. Shorter or Taller: Taller
78. Romantic or Spontaneous: Spontaneous
79. Fork or Spoon: Fork
80. Coffee or Tea: Coffee
81. Hook-up or Relationship: Hook up. Relationship
82. Looks or Personality: Looks attract me, personality keeps me hooked.
HAVE YOU EVER:
83. Lost glasses/contact: ALL THE TIME.
84. Snuck out of a house: MAAAAAYBE
85. Held a gun/knife for self defense: Ya
86. Killed somebody: No.
87. Broken someone’s heart: Idk
88. Met Neil Patrick Harris: No
89. Cried when someone/something died: Yes
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
90. Yourself: I know what I can and cant do
91. Miracles: Sure.
92. Love at first sight: Yup aka Lust.
93. Heaven: No.
94. Dreams coming true: Yeah.
95. Angels: In a Kind
96. Kiss on the first date: Yes :)
TRUTHFULLY:
97. Is there anyone you want to be with right now: Yeah.
98. Do you know who your real friends are? No
99. Do you believe in God: No.

Ballerina

I will never see the ballet. I will die as he goes with her. I will be alone for the rest of my few days. He doesn't know or he doesn't care. I won't feel the emotion the ballerinas invoke with there every move. She will make him happy. That happiness kills me because I can not give that to him. This faceless woman is more to him than me, she is who he chooses to see such things with. She is what is meant for him but my heart cant seem to accept that he wants to feel with her not me. I want it to be with me but I know he shouldn't. I want to fight but I don't know how. So I will just sit, in my dark room and listen to the rushing in my ears as my tears fall. My love I could not tell him of now chokes me. My mind torments me with images of them together and my inside shrink a little more. The pain stops my breath and my brain becomes cloudy as I fall onto the floor. My dreams chase me in my head. Ballerinas with spikes gallop after me. I watch with trepidation and amazement from above it all. How is this so strangely hypnotizing? In this hall of red I run forever. I look so clumsy and ugly. My chest heaves and puffs out irregular breaths. I hear there slow methodical breath in my ears. My mask of make-up runs ruined down my face. A woman with a blurred face jumps on top of me. She holds my wrists in her hands as I shake struggle to get away. My insanity shows as she sits astride me calm as a willow tree in the breeze. I am rabid compared to her is perfection. "Your time here is done." "He never needed you, you knew that." My cries turn to screams. "NO STOP DON'T SAY IT! DON'T!" She breaths even breaths as she takes a razor blade from her between her breasts. " You have no reason to linger." I scream the scream of a woman murdered as her blade runs across both my wrists. My scream is the last sound I make as in the waking world a blood vessel in my brain bursts and my heart tumbles to a stop. He will never know. He will never ask. No one will think to tell him of my death.